Blog by Jedde

It had taken a few years to achieve a hair length that was elbow-level. Every day, I would wash it with care and thoughtfulness, though I never really bothered putting so much effort into styling it. I liked my hair just the way it was. One day, I was feeling incredibly invincible, a little scared, but pumped up nonetheless. Without hesitation, I tucked my phone inside my bag, booked a cab and headed to a place where I know my spontaneity would now etch a new, crazy memory in my head. Prior to this, I had already saved dozens of photos of the looks that I'd wanted, now pinned on my Pinterest page. I'd received nonstop motivation from my fiancee, giving me that boost of confidence to finally make it happen. When I did reach my destination, it took me a moment to step inside the building. I took a deep inhale, held the door handle on my hand, and pushed open the door as I made my way inside the little shop. Now, the fun begins. I've just gotten my hair shampo...

I sat on a cab feeling drained and tired. My mind had gone off somewhere else and my stomach was grumbling, hungry. It had been a long day and noticing that the amount of energy I'm left with could not even suffice for a subtle movement, I sat still, my eyes fixed on the moving scenery from the car's window. If I were to shift myself inside that cab, that one small movement would've demanded all my effort and so I remained inert. As if on its own and without much of my control, my mind transported me to different places and chose to linger in a time that has not even arrived yet - the future. There, I was shown things I needed to do, the plans that I needed and wanted to pursue, and goals I must accomplish. Not only did thinking about these thoughts made me anxious, but it also drained what energy I had left. This kept on for a while despite taking a toll on me because I had let it. When the chaos of the uncertain future had subsided, I realized that I had taken too ...

Photo: Pexels I tried to go beyond my comfort zone the other day. It was an attempt to present some practical set of tools that I've learned from my course. An idea meant to provide a fresh perspective on tackling changes to a group of 15 people. Being a beginner in that particular topic, my mind began to wander and imagined possibilities of myself, standing in front of everyone - confidently delivering an impeccably substantial content. In that bubble, I looked comfortable being in my element with no clear signs of doubt and fear as I spoke. How powerful I appeared to be in that vision! I snapped back to reality and while putting together my presentation slides, I couldn't help but notice how eager I was to deliver the content. Somehow, outlining the important points about the topic seemed like a piece of cake. In fact, it felt liberating! The ideas flowed out naturally and almost seamlessly. I typed as each idea pops up. Seeing it happening right in front of my very ...

Let me ask again - are you ready to fail? The year 2020 is officially in your midst. This gives you new opportunities, new experiences, and new chances to achieve new levels that you can potentially unlock within yourself. You are presented with a fresh start to grow. You tell and remind yourself to let go of negativity, toxic people, and drop the things that are preventing you from achieving happiness. You are determined to do so. You feel excited, feeling exuberant and alive. In your hands, you hold a brand new blank journal ready to be filled in with big plans, goals, and ideas. In fact, a few bullet points are already inside it - places to visit this year, what you will commit on doing better, even a budget plan is in place.  You are geared up, all set to face life head on. With a hint of enthusiasm and gusto, you stand up as confidently as you can with your pen and journal on one hand, and a fist up in the air as though saying "Bring it on! I'm ready!...