Blog by Jedde

I sat on a cab feeling drained and tired. My mind had gone off somewhere else and my stomach was grumbling, hungry. It had been a long day and noticing that the amount of energy I'm left with could not even suffice for a subtle movement, I sat still, my eyes fixed on the moving scenery from the car's window. If I were to shift myself inside that cab, that one small movement would've demanded all my effort and so I remained inert. As if on its own and without much of my control, my mind transported me to different places and chose to linger in a time that has not even arrived yet - the future. There, I was shown things I needed to do, the plans that I needed and wanted to pursue, and goals I must accomplish. Not only did thinking about these thoughts made me anxious, but it also drained what energy I had left. This kept on for a while despite taking a toll on me because I had let it. When the chaos of the uncertain future had subsided, I realized that I had taken too ...

Here we are - standing at the crossroad; wondering how we all managed to survive the storms that wreaked havoc in our lives this year. Nobody has the slightest idea of how we got here - even us. We do know, however, that the path to reach where we are now is one that's winding, bumpy, narrow, and difficult.  We've lost a lot along the way - hope, inspiration, clarity, even ourselves in the process. We've shed tears, so much of them just like how it's been raining endlessly these past few days of December. We thought there was no way past them - but here we are, wounded but still standing, still fighting. Knees trembling, we try to look back at our journey for a moment. The times we fell down in defeat and felt achingly helpless begin to flood our memories. The darkness is fresh in our minds, the wounds still stinging as though it hasn't been healed. We savor the painful moments, still finding hard to accept that some people who we love dearly have l...