Blog by Jedde

It had taken a few years to achieve a hair length that was elbow-level. Every day, I would wash it with care and thoughtfulness, though I never really bothered putting so much effort into styling it. I liked my hair just the way it was. One day, I was feeling incredibly invincible, a little scared, but pumped up nonetheless. Without hesitation, I tucked my phone inside my bag, booked a cab and headed to a place where I know my spontaneity would now etch a new, crazy memory in my head. Prior to this, I had already saved dozens of photos of the looks that I'd wanted, now pinned on my Pinterest page. I'd received nonstop motivation from my fiancee, giving me that boost of confidence to finally make it happen. When I did reach my destination, it took me a moment to step inside the building. I took a deep inhale, held the door handle on my hand, and pushed open the door as I made my way inside the little shop. Now, the fun begins. I've just gotten my hair shampo...

I sat on a cab feeling drained and tired. My mind had gone off somewhere else and my stomach was grumbling, hungry. It had been a long day and noticing that the amount of energy I'm left with could not even suffice for a subtle movement, I sat still, my eyes fixed on the moving scenery from the car's window. If I were to shift myself inside that cab, that one small movement would've demanded all my effort and so I remained inert. As if on its own and without much of my control, my mind transported me to different places and chose to linger in a time that has not even arrived yet - the future. There, I was shown things I needed to do, the plans that I needed and wanted to pursue, and goals I must accomplish. Not only did thinking about these thoughts made me anxious, but it also drained what energy I had left. This kept on for a while despite taking a toll on me because I had let it. When the chaos of the uncertain future had subsided, I realized that I had taken too ...